“Consider how the wildflowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you - you of little faith!”
Luke 12:27-28 (NIV)
When it comes to control and frustration, I have had my share of struggles. I believed my job was to be in control of all the things. Whether that was as a teacher, a parent, or in my day-to-day task list, I worked hard to make sure I had a plan and things went accordingly. When they didn’t, I struggled. Even though I was a believer and knew God had a plan, I didn’t understand why our plans weren’t aligning. Meaning, I didn’t know why God wasn’t doing it MY way. God must have gotten a good laugh at my failed understanding of His design.
In the last four years, God has shown me how my desire to be in control doesn’t really fall in line with allowing Him to be in control.
In my early adulthood, between being a classroom teacher and a new parent, success around me looked like being an organized and controlled person. During that time, I felt the pressure from the world that I needed to be in control - but it never brought me peace. When I decided to leave my career to give my time to my family, I had no clue how God was going to work. I was surprised to begin the journey of photography and become a stay-at-home mom a second time. Of course, the need to control things still bubbled to the surface. I continued to try and put things in place and make sure things were just so, but saw again the frustrations that came with me trying to be in control.
When my daughter was just over 2, and in a field of dandelions, God showed me how beautiful His natural design was if I could only learn to trust and be still. It was a beautiful start to a life change of seeing beauty in our everyday life and photographing this way too.
As I have moved forward and learned to let go, more calm has come into the season of life I am in. I have learned that being present is so much more beautiful than control according to my plan. While I am still human and fall back into my own ways of wanting things to go the way I want, I also find myself taking pause, praying, and trusting when things look different then I envisioned.
I see it now. I see how God is taking care of things in His perfect ways and how beautiful it can be when I trust Him and am still in His presence.
For Your Reflection...
Do you believe God will care for you like he cares for the flowers and the birds? How do your actions show it?